Polka Dot Ponies

This will most likely be just a collection of my ramblings. I ride and train horses, so there is bound to be a lot of horse stuff. But I also just like to vent and this seems the perfect place.

Thursday, November 20, 2008

Happy News and Sad Tears.

So tonight I found out that one of my very close friends is pregnant! I am thrilled for her and her hubby. I think they will make fantastic parents and I already told her that I get to be an honorary aunt. I was with her and 2 of our other friends when she called hubby to tell him and then when she got to call her mom and dad to tell each of them. It was so exciting and so life changing but also for me it was a bit sad. As I sat there among the smiles and speaker phone congratulations and screaming I couldn't help but be sad at the things I will never be able to do. You never think about the small things like telling your mom and dad they are going to have a grandchild when you lose them so early. I think that this all may also have a bit to do with timing as yesterday would have been my mom's 56th birthday. I usually try to be a very happy and positive person but tonight as I sit here with tears streaming down my face I think about all that my mom and dad will miss. Sometimes I miss them so much I think my heart physically hurts.


Blogger Jean said...

So sorry to hear of your sadness. It gets hard around birthdays and holidays too. I've lost my parents and my brother as well, so I understand.

What you must cherish is the fact that you are the person your parents made you, so they still live through you. That gift of love will never end. Sometimes, when I do something, say something, or even look at myself in the mirror, I see something of my parents alive in me and remember them. They gave me so much and taught me so much they are here always.

November 22, 2008 at 12:59 AM  

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